THOUGHT OF A GREAT WOMAN

Once again I say..
I need you not to seek me
not even this time around.
For I am gone beyond your harsh reach of fluid called LIFE.


I say you need not to seek me.
Not within the blackish of heart that deprived one of herself amidst thorns of faded smile.
The one that lacks genuineness and greatness of the mind
I said, I am not within your reach of delirious beheading with the mouth so sharped like the hurt of a hoe.


Search for me not,
I am the sunshine that consumes your wick.
I am beyond your power of rich, for money I crave not and wealth I care not for,
But the burning and raging light within me could not be quenched by your all.

I am your doom, the one they warned your fore fathers about.
No mate are we
For you are now my victim of the pain your oldies have cost
you wouldn't escape my judge.


Seek for me NOT.
For I am on a journey of revenge on all of you that claimed red of all the white tribes of my booming tribes.
I am within the same agony created by the wolves of the wickedness within you.
I am burning in the same fire that would consume you.


Hey! I said search for me not
For this journey I have given my all.
less it brings me fate or faith .
like Papa on the mountain of colasotu
His pedantic treatment when you all watched him die has risen and birth a girl not a boy.
I am peppered, more than your deceiving ego, for I will fight and show you a way to go

Seek me not for I am enjoying my imagination of a great WOMAN
and maybe one day, I would be up and speak with my all.
All the pain and revenge that I seek.

Love and Pain season 1 (episode 4)

Having a free and traffic less road at the hour of the day I go to my work is like bringing the dead to life. Such of those times is this Monday morning. I drove enjoying the coolness of the atmosphere.
I managed to get to work few minutes to resumption time just like every other day at work. Aside the normal morning greetings nobody at the office had time for the normal gist about the weekend, of course the reason is not far fetch, Dr Wilson is around.
Dr Wilson is the owner is Reigners Publishing plc. and he is a man of integrity, he never condoles laziness from any of his staff, he wouldn't hesitate to query such a person.
If a pin could drop it would make a loud noise. Everyone was buried to work even Ernest who has formed the habit of coming to my office first in the morning, I wondered if he was even at the office.
Well it was a Monday morning, to me I wouldn't mind the whole week being like this because this would help me meet up the deadline to submitting an assignment given to me by Dr. Wilson,
i wouldn't want to betray his trust. He has trusted my intelligence ever since the day I met him in his office someday with worries all written on his face. I was about dropping a file on his table when I found out he had his head on his table, I summoned courage to talk  'sir hope all is well' I said very faintly
raising his head  'Tife I will be fine thank you very much'
I dropped the file and was about going out of his office when he called me out again, then he asked 'i think you once told me you are good at writing'
Moving back towards his table 'Yes sir'
I don't know if you can help me out with this article, I need to present it at a seminar tomorrow morning and right now i couldn't put anything together.
I assured him of doing my best,he was surprised the next day as I presented the article to him. He was shocked at the level of my writing skills and my ability to meet up the time.
Ever since then, I have his trust on deadlines.
It was time for lunch and here comes the trouble maker. Tife, remember you owe me lunch and I want it today, right now. Ernest!!! As I raised my voice a bit, don't you ever forget things like just go dumb some times and stop taking every details of words, ahn. He laughed and gave me a look that appears to be 'this one no know wetin she enter o'. See your face like that whatsapp emoji, I said this as I used my hands to cover his face. Just follow me, for food only. Call me anything you like, I wouldn't mind what I'm after is 'just buy me food, shikena' we bursted out in laughter together. It was during lunch Lolu's text came in 'i'm picking you up after work today, be set'. Even though the text was unattended to, it was on my mind.
Few hours later, 10mins before the closing hour, Lolu drove in and gave me a call to notify his presence. Just give me few minutes I will be with you now.
Every moment with him sucks all my worries and troubles. I literally forget them and enjoy seeing his handsomeness. Adelolu, the one with the magical words that hits the heart and melts its stubbornness. You know you're such an amazing person, someone I want to stay in my life forever. But Lolu, I just want you to understand what's going on and I'm sure you know, you're just not taking it easy on me. It's more complicated than you think it is. Put yourself in Dire's shoes, would you survive it? Even the blind and deaf knows how much I want all this drama to end. It was all as if I was soliloquizing, because Lolu didn't became deaf and dumb like he doesn't understand the language I was speaking. He didn't say a word till we drove to my apartment. We set out of the car just to find out my apartment was unlocked. Oh my God, I just hope it's not what I'm thinking. Dire has a spare key to entry and he is fond of coming up with surprises. I thought within myself  'I hope some drama is not about starting'  getting to the entrance of my apartment I was shocked and dump founded as Dire step out of the house to give me a welcoming hug, he immediately spotted Lolu and silence filled up the air.

Written by Olatayo Nickiwonder Iyanuoluwa and Olabisi Folashade

A Goodbye

Every goodbye had made me remembered the last day of the previous year. while a good number of people were rejoicing and making resolutions, I was left alone battling with a Goodbye I could have prevented.
Today looks exactly like that very day, I woke up to a goodbye and to putting an end to somethings I had began with so much enthusiasm.
I picked up my notebook in preparation for today's dealings, I do this often when I found the day so inspiring, I wanted to write down a couple of lines that popped into my mind as I view through the window the beauty of a new day.
I was unable to finish the lines when I discovered I just finished using the last page of my notebook. This is significant to me as I began to dwell on seeing the end of things you once thought would last  forever. I got a new notebook by all means, this is because I couldn't wait to put down the lines (who knows they might be of great value to me or someone someday).
Another significant scene came up, I realized I am actually going to read the last page of a novel I started days ago not only that, today is the last day in the month of October. Everything around me speaks a goodbye to me. Like I am getting expired or probably needs a new life, like I am in another fast planet that eat time up so fast.
I was trying to figure out why and how ironically could a day start with an ending.
Nico! Nico! the voice from the gate made me know how deep I had gone into thought.
"You really need to handle this with a strong heart" Zoe said as I open the gate.
I was lost right at the spot, even tho I don't really understand the message she was going to pass.
I couldn't speak a word, all I could do was a stare at her lips as she announced the death of Ali


Written by Olatayo Nickiwonder Iyanuoluwa

A writer

Most people think we write about our shadow
Or the bright light in the heart.
Some think we write about our pain
Or the pitch of joy that fling one about
Others believe we live in a fantasy of words
Or in a shallow of daydreaming.
That we have a world of dynamisms.
Which changes with time and gives one no identity.
That we dig through our fear and try to paint it as our courage.
That we are just the opposition of our true nature. We are confused but we blame it on lines
That little truth exist in us while others are the life of a troll
Some say we're beautiful in and out and all writes portrays our experience.
 Noone but few never understand the mental anguish of seeing blankness.
While the entire of your vicinity speaks loudly
No one could see the pain that drags you into another realm while all are sound in rest
Noone could see fear that Scrabble the major of what your head whispers
None could see the swallowed word your pen refused to put down.  How you turn the whole of the story and make it what the phobia demands.

There is a pain of a less sleep and there is a fear of a less truth.
There is a conflict of exposing and disclosing.

Poet: Olatayo Nickiwonder Iyanuoluwa

WHERE I FOUND MYSELF

Here is where I found myself;
Amidst ponderous obligations.
"No you can't stay out"
you are weak and the night is for the strong

Here is where I found myself;
Amidst constraints of choice and of voice.
"you are a fallible being"
And you are created to watch!

Here is where I found myself;
Amidst inequalities of uttermost value.
"you are indecorous and a disgrace to our family"
You lay with a man who has not bought you!

Here is where I found myself;
Amidst decit of love from all because of my samototype
"Save our money and go with the rich"
You have little value to add to the clan.

Here is where I found myself;
Amidst folks that bury there own dreams
"We are feeble, who will watch us become light?"
We are what our head made of us

Here is where I found myself;
Amidst a life I can't live; air I can't breathe
"I will disown you, if you refuse to go with Alabi".
He is the surety to your brother's education.

Here is where I found myself;
Amidst no life of my own;
"Your husband is your head"he has the right to bring in another woman"
You are the woman and you dare not do the same.

Here is where I found myself.
Where I speak this piece to myself
hide it in the shelve.
because the whole world pretend to be deaf


Poet: Olatayo Nickiwonder Iyanuoluwa

Art by @ojebiyiseyi

LOVE AND PAIN

          LOVE AND PAIN
              Season 1( Episode 3)
I could barely count my toes when I had a bang on the main entrance to my apartment. I opened just to get a yell from Victoria, why the heck did you give me such a call that almost send me somewhere I don't want to go anytime soon? Please Vicky, spare me that and let me vomit the words before a disaster beyond control happens. With shock and anxiety all on her face she pounced on the sofa I sat on. I've never seen you this way, talk to me what's going on? Is Dire filing a break up or what? All I could do as she was saying all of this was just to hold back the fears and tears in my voice. Babes, I'm losing my mind. I can't get hold of myself. Lolu is in town and. . . was all I could say before Victoria got up the chair giving groovy dance moves to the hit song trending at the time. Will you just stop and hear me out? I yelled. Babe, wetin dey sup na? You suppose dey happy now? You've waited for Lolu in years, I thought Dire was just to while away time. I. . .I, I fell over board love, beyond what I wanted with Dire. Plus I'm freaking confuse right now because Lolu won't take no chills at all. He's asking for love, love that stays forever, gosh. We had a kiss on our first date. This words at the ears of Vicky was like hell broke loose because she gave a lifetime drama in two minutes, the jubilations was much that the gatekeeper had to check if all was well
Vicky what do I do? Where do I go from here, where do I put Dire, where? Calm down dear, see the best thing to do sometimes is to do nothing. Just enjoy the moment, get the best fun out of it while it lasts, she said. Don't overly stress yourself, you will be alright las las. You're a beautiful girl anyone will go heads over heels for now, she said tickling my waist. We bursted out laughing as she puts up a funny stupid look on her face. I know you'd always make me forget my troubles, I said smiling. You're one in a million for me, stay with me forever baby. You know I'd always be for you lovey, she replied. Yeah, I've got a good juicy news. I'm repping the department in a conference soonest as the best graduating student. She wowed and gave me a scent giving tight hug, congrats baby.
Oh, she got me out of my volcanic hours of the day, I sighed sitting on my bed to retire for the night when I remembered I hadn't heard from Dire all day, no call nor text. I picked my phone to pull a call through. Love of my life, you just left me to tour the stressful day all alone. No calls or messages, why now? I said to Dire as he giggled and said I'm sorry I've just been busy. Your words are cold, is anything the matter. No, not at all just a couple of things at the office. How was your outing? At this point I couldn't imagine what will be the out come of this conversation. I held my breath for some minutes and said it was fine, a good reunion though. Dire smiled, I hope that was all that happened? he said. What do you mean by that, were you expecting something more or what are you insinuating?
Nothing baby, but we both know what Lolu's presence means. Let's not deceive each other and point these issues out straight. Well, I care less. All I want you to know is I love you and not willing to trade you for anything, not for a lost but now found love, not for anything on earth or underneath. And I'm so ready and prepared for whatsoever it is that it will require of me. Baby, I can't lose you,I can't just afford it, it's too expensive. Just don't breach my trust, please.
I was dumb to give a response to all he said and managed to change the course of discussion. We had out chit chat for over sixty minutes, when two heart that loves meet you should know what next.     
            The ray of light coming in through the window blinds was the first touch that woke me up to life on a Sunday morning. There's a whole lot to do, like every other morning. Saturday is just destined to be a chore filled day for others but for me it's Sunday but the lazy ass in me doesn't want to leave the comfort of my executive beddings. I was still in bed for about one hour after I opened my eyes, grabbing the pillow so tight to my body.
After a long day full of cleaning and preparations for the new week, I retired to bed after my sumptuous yummy home cooked meal I made for myself. I barely find time to do that weekdays, I'm always on the run, tight schedule. The tingling bell ringtone from my phone brought Lolu's call. Hey baby, you just ignored my messages since yesterday. I've i done any wrong? Lolu, no, not that. I just feel you should give me some space to breathe, you're choking me. I don't mean it to be bad but please give me time. I have a relationship I'm in right now and I don't think. . . I'm confused. He was about talking when Dire's call was coming in from my other phone. Lolu spare me some minutes please I said to him as I grabbed my ringing phone.


written by Olatayo Nickiwonder Iyanuoluwa and Olabisi Folashade

LOVE AND PAIN

                    LOVE and PAIN
                 (Season 1 Episode 2)
by: @nicki_wonder & @shadeey_amazing


I have never been in this kind of dilemma and I thought for the first time those who actually engaged in a double dating might not be wrong as well, who knows maybe they really found themselves in this same shoe I am.
Lolu still on his kneel, I know this is going to be difficult and I am ready to stand by you as you make your decision, he said as he stood up to me. He held my two hands and maintains a direct but romantic stare at me. No one uttered a word for few seconds, all we both could do was a stare but anyone who is familiar with heart beat communication would know Lolu and I had gone in talks even with the silent.
He took a step closer to me without lowering his stares.
"what are you trying to do"? I merely finished that statement then I felt a warm,soft and sweet touching on my lips. He kissed me and I couldn't resist his succulent and dulcet lips as much as I try to stop myself from kissing him back,  my feelings is just  too big for me to control at the moment. The music from my ringing phone brought us to sanity. who could that be I thought for a while as I pretend to act as if nothing really happened. To be honest
this moment had been a fantasy for me right from the high school and even after we departed I still found myself daydreaming about this, but a lot changed in the way I pictured our first kiss, I never for once thought there could be a 'but' not even from me.
That's Dire I said to myself as I rushed to pick up my phone but it was a bit of surprise for me as i found out the caller is Ernest. Ernest has been the only visible rival Dire always have in mind,he is always scared of the fact that we spent so much time together at the office and we equally have lot of things in common which has actually been the reason I still hold on to our friendship. It wasn't really Ernest call that got me surprised and bothered but the fact that it wasn't Dire. Like I just kissed another guy who is not my boyfriend and I had no hint of suspicion from Dire. I mean Dire and I are so connected that we sense any form of threat to our relationship as soon as its about to happen.
I could vividly remember a time like that with Ernest in the office, he was supposed to help me with stuffs I really couldn't handle at the office, Ernest almost force forced a kiss on me before Dire entered and got me saved. He said he felt it in his spirit that something is about happening to me so he had to rush to my work place and there has been times I equally rescued him from such because I felt he was in danger also. This has been the extent to which I am connected with Dire. But how he couldn't feel anything this time around got me worried.
Lolu was busy smiling and feeling himself as if nothing we did was wrong, I was so irritated that I couldn't stand his presence again.
This is not right! No No! I told myself and came back to life. I stood up and told Lolu I needed to leave, he tried to persuade me to stay so that he could drop me at my place but I insisted' I told him i need to leave and i left the eatery.
leaving the eatery I wouldn't stand to see Dire also at the moment, all I wished to do was to run away from these two guys driving me crazy. I found my way back to my own apartment which was about 50km from the eatery, I stay in a self contain apartment which is largely occupied by workaholic set of people who  will leave home as early as 5am and come back as late as 11pm, this include a Saturday like this, with this I knew I was going home to nobody except the gatekeeper. As the gatekeeper opened the main entrance and we exchanged greetings, he handed over a letter he said some man dropped for me, I collected it from him but was not ready to go through another drama of reading a strange letter. I dropped the letter on the table as I got into my apartment leaving it unread. Trying to settle and regain my sanity, I had a shower and pick up the last apple I have left the the refrigerator.
Victoria is the only person that can understand and as well save me from this, Victoria and I have been good friends far back as primary school, She seem to be the only friend I've kept for that long and for that reason I believe she had the real picture of me and she understands very well my personality. It's Saturday and the time was about 5'oclock in the evening.
'She must be back from work'
I quickly picked up my phone, dialed her number 3times before she eventually responded.
Babe, what's up, are you back from work? please make it to my place tonight, I really need someone to talk to. I didn't give her a chance to agree or disagree, I hanged up and retired to bed.
Then I remembered the unread letter, I grabbed it with the last drop of strength in me.
Pulling the main message out of a medium sized brown envelope. I was amazed with my lips wide apart as I read through the content of the letter
  (Watch out for Episode 3)
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